I Have Nothing

I have nothing to do today.  In fact, now that I’m on summer break from teaching, I have really nothing to do every day.  It makes for a day full of possibilities and I think, “Today I’ll accomplish something fantastic and worthy of putting out into the world.”  And, a 1 hour yoga session, 2 dog walks, 20 views of Facebook on my cell phone and 2 episodes of Orange Is the New Black later, and I still have contributed nothing of tangible value, or at least that’s how I feel.  But, somewhere in the day I did wash all of my laundry, make my bed, do the dishes and clean out the cat’s litter box.  That’s something, right?

I have nothing to complain about.   I could choose to gripe about how I am a little bored sitting here alone in my house, but then at least I can say I have a house.  And I have really sweet pets.  And the breeze is blowing right now as I’m sitting on my front porch typing and philosophizing about my life.  Sure, my hips are a little achy, and yes, I haven’t changed out of my yoga clothes that I put on this morning (which means my armpits smell a little ripe, but the breeze will take care of that), but I ate a nice and healthy meal and I moved my body today.  And I watched an enthralling episode of Orange is the New Black, so all is copacetic in my little area of the world.   That’s something, right?

nothing

I have nothing planned this summer.  It’s been a really beautiful experiment of sitting with myself day in and day out and really getting to know who I am.  Sure, I hang out with friends and yes, I go out on dates, but overall I come home to myself and I don’t just mean physically.  I am starting to know my own heart a bit more and not feeling as lost in the world as I have in the past.  I’m sure I’ll have moments of losing my way, but at least I’ve built a road map and have the resources (like yoga, reading, writing, gardening, drawing and watching good TV shows like Orange Is the New Black) to help me get back on track with living a fulfilling life.  That’s something, right?

all-or-nothing

I have nothing and everything at my fingertips daily.  I get to dance in the middle of my living room without the worries of anyone watching.  I get to choose how I will structure or not structure my days, and how many episodes of Orange Is the New Black I will watch before my eyeballs fall out.  I get to pay bills, run errands, feed my dog and cat, do laundry, clean my house, work in my garden, read my book, write my blog, text my mom, hang out with my friends, meet new people, visit with my neighbors, walk my dog, and eat healthy & delicious food.  So, hooray for nothing!  I’m so very grateful for this day.  I think I’ll do nothing more today (except maybe watch one more episode of Orange Is the New Black).  That is really something.

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